Saddest Day of My Life

I’m overwhelmed right now, so I’m going to keep this brief.

The dearest man I ever knew, my husband of 25 years, Gerry Landy, died on Sunday. It wasn’t entirely unexpected; he had been suffering from heart complications since March. Friday and Saturday he was at the Mayo Clinic for his heart, he was admitted on Saturday, and his rapid decline was entirely unexpected.

My own health is very bad right now, I’m dizzy and nauseous every day from the Chemo and can’t sit up or even lay down comfortably. This makes it impossible to answer emails or messages, I know all of you mean well and love us, but I will not be able to correspond with anyone for a while.

We’re still working out the details of a memorial service. As soon as I have better information I will post it here.

Thank you in advance for your thoughts and your love. I know the kids and I will get through this, but right now the path seems very dark especially since I can’t raise my head up.

160 thoughts on “Saddest Day of My Life

  1. Annie. I am speechless. I am so, so sorry, and am sending thoughts of peace and comfort to you, Andy, and Max. I will keep an eye on the blog to find out how we can help.

  2. Oh, dear. .I went through the same thing last year. It will be hard, but you are stronger than you know. All my love, Nancy France

  3. Oh, dear Annie. I only know vicariously about you and Gerry and your love and struggles over the years. I know Gerry has struggled over the years with his health… so have I. I get it. I was the chick in your class in Portland (in a wheelchair) who broke down bawling in your class. Suffice to say that I have seen a LOT in my lifetime – illness included. I keep searching for the right thing to say, and there is no right thing. So just know that I am sending my prayers. I know that you are one tough broad. But this is enough to make any tough broad stop and fall apart for awhile. We will all send our thoughts and prayers to you – it still won’t be enough. But just know that we are all behind you – standing RIGHT behind you. Love and best wishes from one tough broad to another… —Debbi

  4. Oh honey, you know I have been through some of his challenges with you but not all. I can not imagine how devastating this must be for you and your kids. My heart is with you as is my love and support.

  5. Annie, I’m so very sorry to hear of Gerry’s passing. Although I never had the opportunity to meet him, I felt like I knew him thru reading your books.
    Take care of yourself, and know that there are many of us out here who love you.

  6. Oh, Annie. My heart goes out to you and the kids. I call myself a writer; however, there aren’t words sufficient for this depth of loss. May you find comfort, peace, and joy of memory amidst the sound of hearts breaking. I am so very sorry. ❤️

  7. I am so sorry Annie. Like Jacey said, please know I’m holding you in my heart and sending you much love. This year has been so sad for so many of us. I’m sorry I can’t make it all better, but I’d give absolutely everything if it would work. Big hugs.

  8. So very sorry for your liss. Prayers for your continued strength, and speedy healing, on all fronts.
    A Knitting Sister,
    Nancy Zazza, Bellingham MA

  9. Annie,
    I am sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Sending hugs and comfort to you all.

  10. Annie, I can’t even begin to imagine how difficult this is for you. Please accept my deepest condolences, and know that you are in my thoughts. Take care of yourself, and stay positive.
    Orly

  11. I’m so sorry, Annie. I wish there was something I could do to help. I can’t imagine going through all this at once. Hang in there.

  12. Just to repeat for late comers to Annie’s sad news – – there’s an active DONATE button at the bottom of this page where those of us far away from the family can have a positive & immediate affect to help our Annie, Andy & Max with the costs that are so surely overwhelming them now. Knitters are by virtue of our love of making & giving kind people – Let’s get this fund filled up for the Landy’s so that at least one thing is off of their “problem list”!!

  13. Annie, I’m so sorry to hear of the loss of your dear husband and of your own problems. I can only hope that you will find your way out of this time to better days again. Know that my thoughts are with you at this time.

  14. I know from personal experience of feeling like you’re wandering around on that dark path and not being able to hold your head up-physically and emotionally!
    For now I send you uplifting rays of light filled with healing energies, positive vibes and loving thoughts. Hope they make it through the dark to you. ❤️

  15. Oh Annie, I am so sorry for your loss, especially as it comes when you are less equipped to cope with the stresses associated with it.
    I know that your children will be your strength.

    For whatever my prayers and condolences are worth, they are yours.

  16. Oh Annie what a shock to hear this terrible news. I have followed you and your family for years through your blog and met you in London when you gave a class there many years ago and also saw you in San Francisco when I was on holiday there, so I feel as if I know you well. I can’t imagine what you must be feeling when this happens at a time when you are at your most vulnerable. We are all thinking of you and Andy and Max and sending you the strength to get through this.

  17. I have been reading your blog for years and have only once commented (when you were first diagnosed) but know that I care and am sending you and your children healing vibes. I am so sorry that life has dealt this hand to you but hope the love the 3 of you have for Gerry will help you through this time.

  18. Annie, I am so, so sorry to hear this news. Mourning is so exhausting–I can’t imagine how difficult it must be to suffer such an emotional wound when you don’t have energy. The only thing I can offer is advice from my darkest times…lean into loving your kids and your animals. Shedding tears into the warm and willing flanks of a dog has more than once helped me get to sleep when nothing else could. I wish I knew you better so this might mean more…but do know that my heart is with you in this horribly difficult time.

    • It really is the timing that’s the extra kick in the teeth, huh? Or perhaps it’s the timing that allows me to be numb to so much right now, hopefully to deal with when I have more strength.

  19. A friend just posted about Gerry’s death in the Ravelry group Chronic Bitches. I am so deeply sorry for your loss. I will keep you, Max, and Andy in my thoughts.

    • I love you two, my special friend! SOME DAY WE WILL GET TOGETHER (hopefully to reenact our famous scene together in front of my kids, which will lead to the ‘scarring for life’ that I keep promising them…) Do you ever make it to Minnesota from the coasts?? You can just grab a parachute and jump out of one of your jets…

  20. Dear Annie, you were one of my first virtual knitting mentors way back in the noughts. I am so sorry for your loss and the double whammy life has handed out to you. I am thinking and praying for you.

  21. Annie, I am so very sad to hear this news. It is a life path I am all too familiar with and I hate it when others end up on this same road. It isn’t much, but know that there are virtual hugs out in the great world for you from me.

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