Rick Levine, do I need to get a restraining order..?

Once again, my horoscope is uncanny.  At least, I hope it is (the lightening up part sounds great!)

Wednesday, July 21, 2010 By Rick Levine

Yesterday | Today | Tomorrow

(Aug 23 – Sep 22)

You have big ideas about shaking up things at home in the name of adventure. You don’t want to do everything the same old way as you always do. Your life is lightening up and you feel ready to proceed full speed ahead with your new plans. Meanwhile, assertive Mars in your sign moves toward a restraining conjunction with Saturn that’s exact by the end of the month. If you move too fast now, this speed bump will surely slow you down and force you to learn your lessons.

Well, I AM shaking things up!

Remember that office I was so excited about – the one I lovingly put together when I moved Max into a larger bedroom?

And remember how it was taken over by the family when my back was turned I was out of town?

And remember how I wrestled it out of their death grip and reinstalled myself as the owner of the office?

Well, it’s slowly been taken over again.  It started when I was in bed for 3 months last Fall, then continued as I found myself unable to produce, write, DO as much as I had before.

Ceiling-less Basement Office

But I’m feeling like I need an office again, and I just can’t stand the thought of kicking the family out.  Mostly, I don’t have the resources to man the castle and keep the interlopers (aka Gerry, Hannah & Max) at bay.  So I’m taking over my corner of the basement.

This had been the plan from the start, and we half finished the basement, but we’ve hit a snag here because Gerry’s getting a bit more tired, a bit more overwhelmed every day, and the wait for me to move into the office space downstairs turned into a holding pattern.

So I’ve requested permission to land.  It’s not finished, it’s not pretty, it’s not big, but it’s MINE!  ALL MINE!!

The bonus is we have a bathroom in the basement with a nice shower, so I’ll take that over and use it for my daily stuff (until we hit the coldest part of the MN winter when even a space heater won’t make the basement shower do-able!)

Ladies & Gentlemen, I present my new office.

It needs a LOT of straightening up, the move in is going to be rough, my computer doesn’t work and its currently dark, but it’s MINE!  And it’s cool.


Dear Mr. Levine.  Thank you – let’s hope you’re on point today with my scope!

Thursday, July 22, 2010 By Rick Levine

Yesterday | Today | Tomorrow

(Aug 23 – Sep 22)

It may feel as if a weight has been taken off your shoulders now that heavy Saturn has moved out of your sign. The cooperative Sun-Saturn sextile makes for a rather comforting day as you begin once again to make plans for your future.

Nevertheless, today’s free-flowing energy can be misleading, for you have consistently worked hard over the past few weeks. Don’t expect too much or you will be disappointed with whatever you receive. Your biggest reward is the satisfaction of a job well done.


I’ve been doing the Yoga for 2 weeks now.  It’s not easy, parts of it are very hard, but the sum of the experience is SO positive that it draws me to the studio most mornings for the 8am C1 class.

Nesting at Hill House

Nesting at Hill House

I do feel less lower back pain, the shoulders ache but that comes and goes.  It’s all such an experiment!  I’m a member of Core now, and although I feel it may not be the perfect practice for me, it’s very good right now (and as I grow I can perhaps find a practice that will suit me perfectly.  Or not.)

I went for a longish bike ride this weekend and stopped at the Hill House on Summit.  I often ride by and park my bike on the side porch, sitting just below on a stone pedestal while thinking and knitting.  It’s a peaceful place, very beautiful, a nice stopping point on a bike ride.

While pondering  on my perch I thought of how much we are like telephone lines, going slack in the heat of summer – relaxed – and tightening up in the cold winters.

The past 6 months has been a process of learning to relax, not to judge myself against others, letting all the strings of my bow un-tighten.

I am definitely not on knife edge, not on my A-game.  I’m slow moving, contemplative, watchful.  Not something I can remember being for an extended time before.

Faith Healer

For most of my 48 years, my identity has been wrapped up in GETTING THINGS DONE, and getting them done NOW.  But now I’m stretching, relaxed, not taut.

I can’t decide if I’m happy with this change, or scared by it, but I’m trying to embrace it.  I just cannot – at this point – be the mover and shaker I had been.

Unfortunately, as I was moving some stuff today I dropped poor Wonder Woman and she split.  I felt a kinship with her as she broke in half.

I am not Wonder Woman.  I’m not sure I ever was. But I did feel pretty wonder-full for a continuing period of time.  Designing, teaching, coping – I was doing a lot, and the fibro is probably the price I’m paying for it.

I need to get back to that place, but without the extra angst.  Is that possible?

It’s time to tighten up my game a bit, this being relaxed can begin to feel a little TOO natural.  The trick is in the balance point between too tight and too lose, which I’m hoping I will find in my yoga practice.  I want to be loose enough to be considerate in my choices, tight enough to get my work done.


My computer’s been acting badly  – not the computer so much as the new hard drive Gerry put in back in March. It’s been great, I’ve had SO much more room, but now it seems to have gone wacky.

I use carbonite to back up, and I also have a hard drive I use to store all my movie making files (they’re HUGE) so all I’ve really lost are things from certain libraries that did NOT restore very well (riddle me that, Mr. Carbonite…)

My mail and photo libraries for March – July seem to be missing.

881 emails remain AFTER my first sorting

Luckily, I’d been in a frenzy of flicker uploading or I would have lost all the Ireland photos.  I have all my emails on my server (with the exception of the past 3 weeks, another mystery) so my mail loss is not as bad as it might have been.

This means, though, that every email I’ve received from March through early July have re-downloaded into my mail so there’s a week’s task just sorting them and filing the important ones.  Double damn.

My horoscope today says I should hunker down and wait for my emotions to clarify (like butter?) so that’s what I shall do.

The next sound you hear will be that of me hunkering.

My Husband, The Genius!

To be honest, I wasn’t horribly upset when my cell phone was stolen in Ireland.  It was the least of the missing items – and I didn’t like it very much.

I hate talking on the phone because I have a hard time processing audial information over a phone.  Listening I seem to be okay at, comprehending is hard, but answering in a way that makes sense is just too hard. Folks who call me get used to silence, followed by frustration.

Maybe it’s age, maybe it’s the fibro, but it meant that my pink razor (yes, it was 5 years old) was an attractive purse-weight and used only for emergencies.

I had craved an iphone for a long time, but I couldn’t justify the expense for either the phone OR the AT&T service contract.

But when I found myself in the market for a new phone, I came across a solution.  I found a used iphone 3G at ebay (it had a crack on the back so it was pretty cheap) and it had been jail broken – unlocked – so I could use a T-mobile sim card. 

An iphone image from the 4th

T-mobile actually has a department devoted to assisting folks who use one of their sim cards with iphones.  Who knew?

My local Tmobile office gave me the sim card, Gerry got me added to our current contract for $9 a month (we’d canceled my old phone in May) and I was good to go.

If I want internet that’s a whopping $30/month, but I think I’ll do without it and just use the wifi built into the iphone and scoot into a friendly caribou coffee when I need to surf the web.

I’ve had an ipod touch for a few years, now that has passed on to Gerry who’s making very good use of it.  So I was able to easily transfer all of my audio books, photos, movies, onto my iphone.

Last night as I was syncing my phone I allowed myself to be lulled by the siren song of the pop up status window, and to my dismay I found I’d clicked “Update” and soon my iphone was installed with the newest operating system.

Genius & Genius Jr

The newest operating system wiped out my jailbreak.  The fugitive had been captured.

My Hero

But then along came Gerry.  While I went off to bed with a very sore neck, back and legs, he sat down with the iphone and searched online until he found out how to jailbreak the newest operating system.

He said it didn’t really take that long to DO it, it was just waiting for the steps to install themselves that was the long part.

Either way, I’m very proud of him, and very happy to have my wonderful cheaper-than-I-would-have-dreamed iphone 3G back again.  Yay me!

How lucky I am to have a go-to guy who can figure things out like this?  I know I could have, eventually, but it’s a relief to hand something over when I’ve reached my own frustration level.

Pain Again

I’ve done a few days of Yoga this week at the suggestion of my physical therapist.  It’s DEFINITELY a stretch for me – physical, emotionally AND intellectually.  At Core Yoga, where I’m trying out a free week, the rooms are kept very warm.

For me, this is a sort of living hell (I know it’s wonderful for the stretches, but I turned so red in one class I really scared the teacher.) According to my acupuncturist I have a very HOT constituency (extreme Yang) and BOY was that evident in the first class I took!

They don’t heat the rooms for the C1 (beginning) classes, but the one I took came right after a C2 class, so the room was REALLY hot from that one.

After I figured that out, I went to an 8am class, which was much cooler, and I did a little better.  I’m definitely going back, although I have yet to determine if this is the right place for me.  It may be a bit more hardcore than I’m ready for.

I was heartened that there was one stout woman with white hair near me (we were about the same speed, but she had better balance) and other folks in the 8am class who did NOT look like Yogis, so maybe that would be the place for me.  I felt a little conspicuous for my lack of balance and extra girth in the first class.

Whether the yoga is having an affect on the pain is not yet determinable.  I’m still in that ‘first few classes’ state where I can feel the muscles I’ve been using this week, so it’s a different kind of layer of pain on top of the fibro pain.

This is the point where it would be easy to walk away, but I feel that would be in error.  I have to give it a better chance.

Right now, though, I think I’ve drifted into another flare up.  Achey, sore, very loud ringing in my ears (that’s the determining clue for me) and a sense of malaise and depression.

So I’ll sit and work today, I’ll try to get on my bike, and with any luck I’ll get the last videos finished for the Lace & Twisted Float classes.

In case anyone’s interested in what my videos are like, here’s one I just finished for the lace class: