This can be a very enjoyable day even if there isn’t very much going on. The simplest tasks can bring you great pleasure today, so don’t go out of your way trying to make something special happen. Just settle in for some well-deserved rest and relaxation. Don’t worry; your life will get busy again soon enough.
Am I going to start EVERY blog post with my Twitterscope? Maybe.
Am I reaching for things that will make me feel there is more shape to my days than it seems right now? Probably.
But I like this horoscope, and it fits well with what I need right now. We were going to take Max skiing today, and take our little cat in to have her stitches removed.
However, the high today is supposed be between -5 and 0, so skiing is out. And the vet center is closed today for the holiday so no cat trip. That’s FINE with me! I’m currently in bed.
I think after the Fibromyalgia diagnosis (which I still feel odd about… can’t quite explain) I was hoping that the pain would magically diminish.
That didn’t happen. I’ve been wheat free (-ish) for about a week, taking my vitamin D, sleeping as much as I can but also doing yoga with the Wii at least once a day.
The pain remains. In some ways it’s worse, the pain across my back and up either side of my neck is so bad that I can’t turn my head very well. My knees and shoulders are burning with pain.
I’m seeing my chiro and the massage therapist in his office on Wednesday, and my accupuncturist the following Wednesday. I am EXTREMELY fortunate to have health insurance that covers this (they won’t cover accupuncture for asthma, but they WILL for pain!)
I’ve also been reading about a lot of stuff the Mayo is doing on Fibromyalgia. The next time I see the rhematologist (to hear the test results from my blood work on Christmas eve) I’m going to try to get a referral to the Mayo.
I’m on the hunt for ways to make my pain less of an adversary and more of an un-welcomed friend. A friend who, despite the annoyance, sometimes brings some good stuff (wisdom? patience? perspective?)
Well, THAT’S the mental exercise for this week. We’ll see how that goes!
REST AND WORK
I’m very lucky that my work can be done while sitting in bed. Whether I’m knitting, working on class materials or writing, I can do it in a semi-reclined position (why is this night different from all others?)
So I’m plugging along, sleeping a lot during the day but trying to focus. Focus is hard – my mind wanders, I forget stuff. I’ve been this way for a LONG time, but I had chalked that up to my hysterectomy.
It’s worse now. Stupid things like Gerry telling me he’d fed the pets at 8:30, and me asking Max to feed them at 9:30. My ability on the phone is worse than ever, and I’m beginning to think that my inability to remember things said on the phone, my strong desire to NOT use the phone, may have been a symptom of this FM which has been increasing in severity.
I had an episode while living in NJ where I could hardly move out of my chair (my working chair) for over a month. I had pain, but my breathing was also very bad, so I figured it was all tied up with the asthma. Now I wonder.
I watched a show where folks were building a cat play room for an animal shelter, and I thought, “I wonder if I’ll ever have the energy to engage in something like that again…” I know I sound self pitying, I apologize for that, but I think I’m at the low point where the diagnosis is just reaching me and the pain is still hard.
That period when you seriously wonder if your body will ever feel better.
I know it will. I just have to keep believing that.
Soon I’ll be able to bike again, and in the mean time I have the Wii to keep me moving at least a few minutes a day!
I really miss seeing people, though. Leaving the house is SO exhausting, SO full of pain. Oh, wah wah wah.
I started my online classes this week, it’s SO exciting! I had intended to make a “Welcome to class!” video but I’m just so exhausted, and look so bad (dark circles, shadows on my face, I just look “in pain”) that I thought it would be more frightening than welcoming!
But even without that extra special Welcome Video, it seems that folks are taking care of themselves; logging on, checking out the materials, doing their swatches and having a good time.
I’m really excited for the text chat tomorrow, to see what folks want to talk about!