It’s no secret that my health has been – iffy – the past year, especially since October when I tumbled into bed after a looooong teaching trip only to rise as my own self in late January!
So many things seem to be part of this Fibromyalgia experience.
I have memories of meals I enjoyed immensely, only to feel absolutely terrible; ill, achey, feverish, flu-ish a few hours later.
I now realize it was the massive amount of wheat / gluten that I inhaled during those most enjoyable meals.
I think back to a slight case of the cold, or flu that seemed to expand and explode into a pain filled three week voyage.
I realize now that my immune system doesn’t work the same as it did 5 years ago (or the same as most folk’s immune systems work!) This fibro is VERY clever at exploiting any chink in my health armor to tackle me into submission.
Submit I will not.
When it’s warm and I feel that I can rule the world and save the universe – all from the comfort of my bike seat – I have to dig deep to remember just a few weeks earlier when it was below freezing here and I could barely move.
On a rainy and cold day like today, in the middle of a warm Spring, I feel practically paralyzed with stiffness every time I try to move. These episodes now make sense to me.
That doesn’t mean I enjoy them any more, but it DOES mean that I know it will end, and I will be able to move again.
Sadly, I’m slowly coming to terms with the fact that as much as I love cold weather (and I adore it) I usually do a bit better when it’s not clammy & wet & cold all at the same time (like today.)
Our family is NOT contemplating a move – we ADORE Minnesota and we’re doing well here – but it does mean that I need to take advantage of the warmer months for the more physical aspects of my job.
So my own way of making hay – of putting up a harvest to live off of through the Winter – is teaching.
I’m teaching in May (Ireland), June (Columbus), Aug (Scotland) & Sept (Italy). I’m a little concerned about my ability to swear off of wheat while teaching near Rome, but it must be done or I’ll do precious little teaching. Maybe I’ll go on a sacrifice pasta bender my final night? I’ve already sworn off Guinness whilst in Ireland.
However, I’ve scheduled only one engagement per month, quite a reduction from previous Summers. In recent years I’d teach 2 weekends a month, or go on long trips where I’d do 6 or 7 engagements in two weeks. That’s not going to be happening any time soon.
I know now that I can’t push it. I will suffer, as will my students.
And that makes me immeasurably sad. But I must be realistic. Learning to do what I can do, and to stop doing things that make me sicker, is going to be a long journey.
I can’t stand the thought of being disabled – even partially – or what that would mean to the kids (with their father already out of commission) so I’m working hard to squeeze in enough work during my up times to make both ends come together nicely.
My only scheduled in-person teaching event in the US in 2010 will be in Columbus on June 10 & 11. The design group I belong to, The Stitch Coop, has rented space at the Courtyard by Marriott in downtown Columbus, OH, so we can teach to anyone who wants to come and have an awesome time learning new knit techniques!
If you’ll be in or near Columbus and are interested in taking some wonderful classes (not just mine, but so many classes by other SC members!) please check out our offerings and sign up! We’re limiting the size of the classes, when they’re full, they’re CLOSED!
For folks who sign up for my classes at my website, I can offer you a bit of a discount. Use the code word “tnna” and you’ll get a cool 10% off of the price per class.
If you know what class(es) you want, you can sign up here. For more information on my classes, visit http://anniemodesitt.com/classes/columbus_classes_2010.html and you can sign up there, too!
Not to go all Katie Couric on you, but get a Colonoscopy. Seriously.
Colon Cancer is a terrible disease, but your chances of surviving increase by 90% with proper testing. If you are in your middle years (the guidelines now say age 50) please get yourself a colonoscopy.
My mother died of this horrible disease (complications of it led to her liver and lung cancer, too, a pretty awful way to pass) and my recent colonoscopy turned up a pre-cancerous flat polyp that was 15mm, pretty large. It was removed, but I’m supposed to have another test every 3 years.
I shudder to think what would have happened if I had skipped this necessary test (as I considered doing) before my health insurance runs out on July 1.