A New Project, A New Sidepath

Barbie's Scale set permanently at 110 lbs (image by CarrieBee)

A few years ago there was a Barbie doll who famously cried, “Math class is TOUGH!” as one of her pre-recorded soundbites.

Mattel heard the well-deserved cries of protest and yanked Teen Talk Barbie and chalked the whole thing up to a PR nightmare.

Girls don’t need encouragement to believe that mad math skills are beyond them.

My own math journey wasn’t smooth.  I was in advanced math in Jr. High, but upon transferring to a new school which didn’t believe in ‘advanced’ classes I was given a choice to return to a lower class with my 8th grade peers, or move into the 9th grade (elective) class.

I chose the latter, and the teacher (who wasn’t thrilled with a new girl in class, bringing the total female population in advanced algebra to TWO) dogged every equation I wrote on the board.

“Yes, Annette got the right answer,
but she got it the WRONG way…”

It was my last math class – I ended the year with a “D” after a solid A/B average for the previous 2 years in my old school, and I shied away from math stuff for years.

Then I began designing, and I re-discovered the joy of numbers.  It’s almost poetic when I can get the gauge and stitch repeats to work well together, creating a simplified, universal pattern that can be easily altered.  Here’s an example of a recent trip through math hell.

But for the past year – probably more (I’ve been trying HARD to ignore this) my brain is not dealing with sums as well as it has.  At first I thought it was my imagination, then I thought it was pure laziness

Now I’m forced to admit that when I’m return to a pattern in one of my math worksheets I have no memory of my previous encounters with the same formulas.

The good news is that it’s forced me to label all of my columns (which note body measurements and changes in the pattern) INCREDIBLY clearly so I can jog my memory when I return to the pattern.  Clarity is good.

The bad news is that patterns take longer to write.  Recently I wrote up a pattern for a simple shrug.  I’ll admit that the lace pattern was a bit of a bear (I reworked it 3 times to simplify it without losing the beauty) but still, writing the pattern took me approximately 20 hours when a similar pattern might have taken me 4-5 hours a few years ago.

This is so frustrating.  I know it has a lot to do with the fibromyalgia, and I wonder if – in a warmer, sunnier month my brain might be clicking away in a more efficient manner.  But right now it is what it is.

So, while I’m NOT giving up designing hand knit and crochet patterns, I’m branching out a bit to add a bit more joy in my life – and hopefully diversify my income.

Annie Modesitt Fine Millinery

Bytham Cabbage Rose Hat

I’m making Millinery. Hats. Caps. Dome-pieces. Do-rags. Lids.

And I’m selling them on Etsy!

These pieces won’t be available as knitting patterns, that’s part of the joy for me.  I just need to be able to MAKE stuff without worrying about how to tell others how to make the same thing.

Wisbech Cloche

I sometimes find myself stymied by the difficulty in explaining a complex technique, and I avoid some beautiful details in my work for just this reason.

So the hats will be an escape for me, a bit of joy in a few cold, dark months when math doesn’t come as easily as it might.  I’ll make hay – and patterns – when the sun shines.

Edmondthorpe Cloche

If you know anyone who is looking for a beautiful, unusual, interesting hat for a special occasion, direct them over to my website or etsy store.

I’m happy to do commission work, and with the wealth of yarns out there I can match or complement just about any fabric or trim.

It would be lovely to see more brides wearing fine millinery, and the lacework brims on my hats create a ‘shadow veil’ which is flattering to any face!

9 thoughts on “A New Project, A New Sidepath

  1. Unfortunately, I think some of it is also age related. I think I am just a few months older than you and I am having similar issues. Though, I suppose I could have undiagnosed fibro. I don’t think so, but I know I do have gluten issues (I was one of the 1st people to bring that up here I think.) I ate a ton of wheat over the holidays and have been off it only 3 weeks. Wheat Belly is an excellent book about the whole gluten thing and he even has some recipes. The 2 I tried are terrific.

  2. Did you see the beautiful straw hat Mary wore on episode 3 of Downton Abbey the other night? She was wearing it in the scene when she went to visit Aunt Rosamond. I immediately thought of you and hoped you’d design a knit version of it. Now maybe you’ll just knit it and sell it!

  3. I think making/selling hats is a terrific idea. They are beautiful. At the time I thought I might be getting married, I certainly thought about what hat I would wear (sadly, ended up a widow instead). A friend of mine did have a custom hat made for her wedding. So, I think there is a market for bride, wedding party, attendees, etc. Starting this venture during Downton Abbey sounds like good timing (don’t have TV reception so I haven’t seen it). Best wishes for this new direction!

  4. You expressed beautifully the need to just make stuff, without worrying about how you’re going to write it up into a pattern. The hats are fantastic. Brilliant idea!

  5. Good luck with the new venture. Your hats look beautiful.

    You aren’t the only one to have a maths teacher like that. I had one who took one look at me, realised she’d taught my sister then proceeded to ignore me for two years. I was easily the best student in her class but I didn’t get pushed or encouraged (others were given harder work to do while the rest of us twiddled our thumbs). I know I was good – I ended up doing advanced chemistry without doing maths for my HSC Certficate and was probably the only person in the state to do so.

  6. Oh the things fibro can do to your brain. I was having issues and decided to double up my vitamin D. I think it’s helped a bit.
    I absolutely love the hats you’ve done. Especially the Wisbech Cloche. Good luck on your new venture.

  7. Love those hats! I look at them & see lovely floaty dresses in the summer. As for the memory problems: have you had you B12 levels checked? And (more importantly) intrinsic factor?

    I was recently diagnosed with pernicious anemia & fuzzy thinking is one if the symptoms. The NYT had an article about it a few months ago: http://www.nytimes.com/2011/11/29/health/vitamin-b12-deficiency-can-cause-symptoms-that-mimic-aging.html?_r=1
    Muscle aches & pains & problems with sleep are other symptoms (which I have had in spades).

    I have noticed a huge improvement in my sleeping after a couple of months of B12 shots & even some improvement in my muscle pains.

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